Tying Up the Lose Ends...

My mind is constantly failing to comprehend the fact that I have a mere 2 weeks and 3 days before I'm finished with my first year of college.

Yes. College.

I'm not sure how to even begin to describe the experiences that have shaped me in the past 8 months... maybe someday I'll get a chance to sit down and write it all out-- discuss it with Jesus, chew on it together, process the hurt and cherish the gift of of good memories.

I have a feeling this summer's going to consist of a lot of that kind of work.
Yet I get bogged down in feeling insignificant and fruitless when I think about where I'm going to be this summer. Lord knows where my heart longs to be...

But He also knows where He needs me to be. And apparently that's at home, with my family, working in a cafeteria, taking a summer school course, and having a lot of down time. It's not out in the missionfield, serving and living amongst the least and the lost and the poor and the broken. Not right now.

"There is an opportune time to do things, a right time for everything on the earth."
-Ecclesiastes 3:1

The Lord has been faithful in reminding me constantly how His plans for me this summer ARE purposeful... in the world's eyes they may be boring, mediocre, and bland, but since when has God been impressed with what the world sees (aka what I see) as grandiose? I have a feeling this summer's going to be filled with a lot of growth and precious time spent with my Savior, reflecting and absorbing all that has happened these past 8 months. It may not be very tangible, and it may not make headlines, but it doesn't have to.

Even more important, I shouldn't desire for it to.
That desire is ugly and fleshly and wants the glory to only come back to myself.
Definitely not what my heart is yearning for.

So, I'm ready.
I'm excited.

Now, if only I could fast-forward through these next couple weeks... ;)